Blog on Pause

putting my blog on pause indefinitely

Several months ago I transitioned my website to a new platform, to focus more on writing and cartooning, especially writing. This included taking my old blog posts offline, with the intent of reposting them here someday. Turns out, I kind of like not doing this. Awww hell. So. the basics: I’m no explainer, okay? I’m a maker, someone who creates art and writing. Creative time is so precious to me that I want it focused on the stories and novels and drawings, and not on other tasks. Fierce limits…

The puzzle of finding (and losing and regaining) one’s balance for all types of creative time reminds me of this quotation attributed to Martha Graham:

“There is a vitality, a life force, an energy, a quickening that is translated through you into action, and because there is only one of you in all of time, this expression is unique. And if you block it, it will never exist through any other medium and it will be lost. The world will not have it. It is not your business to determine how good it is nor how valuable nor how it compares with other expressions. It is your business to keep it yours clearly and directly, to keep the channel open. You do not even have to believe in yourself or your work. You have to keep yourself open and aware to the urges that motivate you. Keep the channel open. … No artist is pleased. [There is] no satisfaction whatever at any time. There is only a queer divine dissatisfaction, a blessed unrest that keeps us marching and makes us more alive than the others.”

(emphasis on TIME) I don’t think artists and authors are any more ‘alive than the others.’ Yet, there is a certain selfishness to being in the creative arts; a force of self-expression mingled together with everything else that the arts can be. That includes self-care, and recognizing how without the artist (or author, or dancer, or performer) the process can’t be fulfilled.

So I’ve had to admit the truth to myself: right now it’s too much for me to work on blog updates etc. while working, writing, and arting. So I’m not blogging for now. Easy, right?